And the ritual scared AF graduation post finally comes out. Better on tumblr than on fb where everyone will see it. I think I find comfort in the semi-anonymous tumblr world. 

I am beyond scared of what is going to happen after August/September of this coming year. I haven’t found anything yet. I don’t know where I will go or live or work… 

The idea of not having any plans scares me so much. I am trying to find some thrill in the unknown, but it’s really hard.  

Real world problems. Family expectations. My dreams. Ugh they just don’t reconcile with each other.